I can hear my brain
It feels like a lifetime since I blogged anything but I know no-one wants to hear about my misadventures in online dating. Or that I cried when my favourite character died in the book I’m reading.
i thought I should probably talk about something writing-related and that happens to be my writing habits.
some people do their best work at night like me. I feel the crazy bubbling to the surface when the rest of my world is asleep. Because there is a silly amount of ideas bouncing around my brain, night seems to calm them down a bit - not much but a bit is better that nothing. That’s not to say I can’t or won’t write at other times. If I’m having a break fromm other stuff, I’ll wwrite half a scene or start editing a chapter. Early morning, afternoon, whenever I’m awake really. I have been known to take my laptop out and about. I even take it on holiday!
Next up, my pathological inability to work with the TV on. It distracts me. and yet, although I can jist about write when it is quiet, even that distracts me because then I can hear my brain and my thoughts are LOUD. so I always have the radio or my strange tastes in music blasting down my earphones. I think other people can hear some of it too but I hardly notice any more
I also like to have snackks when I write. i have a purple laptop tray with a cup holder. it’s never held a cup. It holds my flash drive, jaffa cakes, pringles, fizzy dummies and marshmallows - but never a cup. That would be ridiculous.
Sucks
Okay, sooooo…
My writing sucks. I’m trying to finish off my Northwood series and work on another book as a loosely affiliated novel. I’m going to see what reception it gets before I decide what to do with it. There is enough power behind it to make a trilogy I think but I don’t know yet.
Tell me why
Hmm. I have to actually write apost tonight. ]Which means I have to think of something to say. Honestly, I’m too over-tired to have a functioning brain today.
I’m back at uni and starting my final year which is good. I decided to do a course in computer science. If anyone can tell me why, I’d be ever so grateful.
the fourth book in my Shades of Northwood series is due for release this Thursday, so make a point of downloading it from smashwords.com. I’ll try to put a link up after. so I’m pretty excited about that. More so because I am one third through drafting the fifth and - hopefully - final Northwood. And I have the followup trilogy in mind already.
Other time-users are drawing, editing, craft, reading. Weird how I can find time to sleep. I’m happy to forego eating for that though.
Screaming.
Faint and weak but unmistakeable. It was the heart-rending sound of somebody being tortured and tormented. And it was coming from the other side of the door. Somebody was being horribly abused behind this locked door and she wanted to go in! Why did she want that? That was insane. And yet… wasn’t the unknown better than the end you knew was coming?
With a snick, the door unlocked and swung open under the combined weight of Katie and Leo, sending them both tumbling through and down to the floor. On the way down, Leo put himself so he would hit the ground first and he could cushion her fall. So not happening. All knowledge that the fall didn’t have to hurt flew out of Katie’s head and Adam’s training kicked in. He had taught her how to fall properly. She was just twisting herself into the right position when the stone floor reared up and smacked her in the face. A pitiful laugh touched her ears.
“Katie!” Leo hauled her up. “Where are we?”
She limped over to the door, which had swung shut behind them, and felt for a handle to pull on. When she found none, Katie put her shoulder to it and pushed. Definitely locked. One way in – no way out. Fabulous. She leaned against it while she got her breath and balance and rooted through her little bag. “Sorry. I haven’t got a map. How the crap should I know where we are!?”
“Because it was your idea to follow the mute assassin.”
Good point.
Try. The single word seemed to come from Dan. Katie saw a thick grey mist around her sister – not malevolent, just intensely miserable.
She wanted to make it better. She wished their family could be whole once more – or as whole as it had ever been. Hold onto that thought, soldier. It could be important. The brusque sergeant voice in her head issued the order just as she was about to brush it aside with her empty wishes, cut her losses and leave. There had to be somewhere she could still be of use.
Leaving her father and sister to it, Katie found her mother glued to the television in the living room with the remote control in her hand but all but forgotten. About to walk past and out of the house, something she recognised came on screen. Katie moved into the living room to see better and stopped behind the sofa, right above her mothers’ curly brown head. She forced herself not to look down because if she saw even a tiny slice of Mom then she’d never leave. And with the report that was running on the local news, leaving was something she could not risk.
“… nobody yet knows how or why this lorry overturned,” said a female reporter on the TV. She had long blonde pigtails and was dressed in a green windbreaker with a blurred brand logo on the chest. Dozens of people had been injured – had even died – in that crash and the station were worried about brand promotion. And then they charge the story to the work experience girl with a stupid smile on her face like it didn’t mean anything. “The casualty total is still rising, with some not even regaining consciousness. The scene we saw here yesterday was the last thing the victims saw. Although we would remind drivers…” The blonde journalist continued but Katie stopped listening. Her mother was humming a tune she had used to get both her daughters to sleep after a tiring day when they were younger. Brahms Lullaby. The woman dropped the remote control on the seat beside her and got up to go to the kitchen. The clinking and clashing sounds of tea being made came from the room. She couldn’t go there, couldn’t go through and stand there as Mrs Cartwright watched another child vanish from her life. What she might see there frightened Katie. It might be a vortex of crashing hurt and stormy fury. And there was nothing she could do to ease that trauma. So she stood behind the settee, numbly hearing the discordant lullaby her mother was humming under the too-cheerful tone of the reporter who was still broadcasting from a temporary shelter near the crash site.
“Please. Please stop.” As time wore on, something dark and dangerous crept across the world. Something thick and constant and searching for souls. Fragmented souls. Essences displaced – spirits that were weak and broken. It would pick them off; take hold of those splintered spirits and turn a crack onto a chasm. It has burst people wide open before„ had made them quiver with fear but to scared to run away. Not that there was anywhere to go in the Dead World. Nowhere to hide.
He didn’t.
“Jack, I can’t. I can’t have you once and risk never touching you again.”
“You did this for me, remember?” he murmured against her skin. “You took my scars and made my memories of pain into moments of pleasure.”
“I was really horny,” she said, knowing that plea would never hold up in court.
“Do you want me to stop?”
Yes. No. Yes. No. Yes. God, yes.
“’Cos I’m not gonna.” And he didn’t. He peeled back each section of the paper gown, kissed, stroked, nibbled every scar or blemish he found under it, and tied it neatly back into place when he was done. Then he planted a kiss on Katie’s forehead and bunched up his jacket for her to us as a pillow. “I won’t do anything else. I know when to stop, when it’s too much. I just wanted you to know.”
“I still love you too.”
“I’m glad. Now, sleep, Lady Katie.” He crouched down by her head and brushed her hair behind her ears. “Sweet dreams.” But her eyes were closed and she seemed halfway to Dreamville already. As he moved to lie down beside her, Katie squeezed his hand in that panicked way of hers.
“Will you still be here in the morning?”
The world is something of a fantasy
Haven’t blogged here for ages so here it goes…
It took about 9 months of hard work but I finished writing my next novel. In the new year I will begin the final round of edits and it will hopefully be ready for publication in the spring. I’m pretty happy with it though. There were points where I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel but I’m just basking in the glow before I loop back and head into the black oncee more.
In the meantime, I am working on two writing projects. One is a short screenplay and should be out around the same time as the novel. It is the second in a TV series.
The other is another novel but more for the adult market. There is no ETA on that. This is because it is much harder for me to write the type of novel this is. I cannot abandon fantasy completely because I think the world is something of a fantasy in itself. But I am having to strip the fantasy elemewnt down to skin nad bones.
It’s hard and that is why I must do it. If I always do what I am comforttable with, how will I ever know if I could be dooing something different?
I’m going to have a heart attack
I’ve never released a script on smashwords.com before - well one, but that was part of a book so I don’t think it really counts. but I’m minutes away from publishing one this morning and I am so nervous about it that I think I’m going to have a heart attaack.
I hope you all like it!
